Well, life is going on
We had the Memorial Service for Mom. It was ok, difficult but healing, and good to see her old friends from the church, and some of my daughters' friends that I haven't seen in a long time. Also the person I have known longer than anyone other than my family came. That was a surprise. A welcome one.

Now we are working on dismantling the home. An estate sale is in the making, and I have volunteered to organize, clean and put together things that will be looked at by the estate sale person. This will be a huge job, looking at all the "stuff" that is here. But, I realize I need to do this...it is my way of saying goodbye to the many items I grew up with and also lived with over the last 10 years; this is a huge part of my life, that I left every time I returned to Lake County. So, it is fitting that I have this time to be with these things, before they become someone else's things. Thank God, my brothers also recognize this need for closure, and actually are relieved I want to do it.

I know that things are superficial and serve a somewhat limited purpose in life. They are for convenience or looks or cuddling or whatever their function may be. They have no inherent emotion; that is in me...and all wrapped up in whatever life process was happening at the time, with any of the hundreds of items that fill this house.

My brothers have much less involvement, out of choice, out of nature, and it is probably somewhat of a gender thing. I don't care what the reasons are, I am glad that I can do it, rather than pay a stranger to do it and hope for respect towards the whole lot of it.

I am glad Spring is approaching. That means summer is also on it's way. And warmth. My brother has turned down the heat, and it is cold here. I know that is saving money, and energy, but my body says, brrrr.

Ok, much to do, and time is limited. Be Here Now.